The Crashout

Oof! I remember the first time I learned what crashing out was, and once I learned it, I don’t understand why I haven’t had more crashouts. I have had seasons in my life of being overwhelmed, and when I looked back after I crashed out, I could pinpoint where all the signs were. Let me take you back to 2021. At some point in these blogs, I will talk about my season of dating whom I like to call “The Jamaican.” It was a fun time in my life but also a time of learning some valuable lessons. As time would have it, we had the initial breakup in 2020 and the final one in 2021. What led to it? My belief in duality. As he stated to me, women are the cause of all of the world’s problems because they believe in duality. Um…duh!!! How can you not? Better yet, how can people not see duality and how it causes us internal conflict? As I will share in some upcoming blogs, I have been paying attention to several phenomena occurring in the US and the broader world since the pandemic. The love/hate relationship with work. We conditioned ourselves to work to fund a life that we built through capitalism. So let me get this straight? Just talking about myself, but I HATE mornings! I hated hearing the alarm clock go off for 32 years, but I worked because I needed food, clothing, and shelter. I wanted vacations, home decor, nights on, restaurant life, and all of the glitz and glam I thought would make me happy. Imagine my surprise and awe when a student told me that her life’s plan was to live off the grid and to live off the land. Her take was, why work for things when I can just live on a farm and grow my own food and have everything I need on that farm? Interesting… Another duality…spiritual life and the nitty gritty of day to day life. I heard it earlier today in a podcast. I won’t mention the name, but the podcaster asked a gospel artist about a few scandal-ridden artists. His question pertained to growing up in sacred spaces, yet being seduced by…what is that? All that capitalism has to offer. I see a theme. Perhaps deep down we know that a simpler life will make us happy. I know I don’t need one more bottle of shower gel, tube of lip gloss, or God forbid another plant. I have enough. Correction, I have too much! The problem is one nature says, enough is enough, and the opposing nature says, I want/need more. Duality. Could this internal conflict be a cause of why people are crashing out?