A Throwback: Hope For Uncertainty

This blog was originally written on March 2, 2025

I’m going to try to be as brief as possible and tell this in a longer form another day because it’s so big. Here’s the timeline.

December 2023: I announced my retirement knowing that I had three debts to tackle. My plan was to work summer school and pay off the debts.

June 2024: I retired, even though I found out in the spring that the retirement system was not going to allow me to work summer school.

January 2025: I got a huge bill that prevented me from making a dent in the other three debts.

February 2025: I’m having a conversation with my dad, and he asks me out of the blue, so how much money do you need? I hadn’t said anything prior to this about any of my debt. I’m hesitant to tell him so I make the amount much smaller than what I actually needed.

Here’s the part: In looking for an envelope and the address of a bill I had to pay, I found a CHECK dated January 2024!!!

My point: What I needed had been in my house since the beginning of last year.

I don’t know about you, but I will often rack my brain trying to figure out where provision is going to come for. It occurred to me just last week that I’m turning 55 in August. 55?!!! Lord knows I thought I would have a solid plan and more stability by now. However, I also know in my gut that this chapter in my life was a test of my faith. When I made the decision to retire, I was determined not to be in my dad’s pocket, and I told him that repeatedly. This was a test, not just about monetary provision, but faith for my future nonprofit and any other uncertainties coming up. Whew! This faith walk can be scary, especially when everything around you looks shaky. I’m sharing this for anyone who can relate, even more so in this climate. Even when you don’t know when and where the blessing is coming from, the blessing is coming. Please do not lose hope.