Temper Tantrum Averted

Note: this blog has been sitting uncomfortably on my laptop for three months because who wants to admit they have an explosive temper? I’m sharing it now because the explosion almost happened today, so it’s time to fess up. What I can admit, I can then confront. Confession Time: I have the worst temper. I write about anger because over the past few years my temper has gotten worse. The absolute worst. It’s horrible because as I’ve gotten older I realize the angrier I get. It comes out mainly with my son. When he called me recently asking me for either a ride home or for money to get home, my temper was just about to flair up. But two things were going on. One of my instructors gave us an assignment NOT to complain for the month, and at the time he called I happened to be listening to a message from TD Jakes about trusting and obeying God. God has shown me the numerous times I’ve had temper tantrums, and it isn’t pretty. This year I started thinking of them as the “trippin’ trap.” I get angry, I start tripping, and once again I have spiraled into full on rage. It’s an ugly thing. And what really is eye opening to me now is only my son sees it. Plus God. After I rant and rave and go into a tizzy, I stop and hang my head down in shame because it is just that ugly. It’s also a reminder that I will keep going around this trippin’ trap mountain until I pass the test of not trippin’. If you have been a regular reader you know that I will be blogging about my life for 365 days, the good, the bad, and the ugly. This time I had a victory, and I’m praying that now that I am fully aware of the trippin’ trap I will work even harder through the power of God to get this temper under control.