Do I Keep Going?

I know that technically I’ve started this writing thing, but I hit a bump in the road. Problems. What do you do when life hands you a curve ball? I started asking myself do I take a time out or do I keep going? If I were counseling a friend, I would tell him or her to stop, breathe, take some time, and then jump back in. But this is different for me. I made a commitment to write and to keep writing for the entire year. I had no idea so much would happen between New Year’s Eve and now that would potentially have the power to derail my plans. But isn’t that what life does on a regular basis? As a teacher I can’t tell you the number of mornings that I prayed to have a normal, uninterrupted day and how often that didn’t happen. The interruptions weren’t always bad, but they were not scheduled on my agenda. Which leads me to this. I feel like God is whispering to me that I can’t have control over everything. Right now He is whispering, but I have learned that if I don’t yield, His voice becomes even louder. And then my circumstances start speaking. I think I can control various aspects of my life, and then the circumstances declare otherwise. I cannot control my students. I cannot control my family and friends. I have some control over home, but I don’t have control over things that break down in my home. Same goes with my car. This is what I meant in a previous blog about being overwhelmed by the giants. This sounds familiar. There were 12 spies who went into the enemy’s camp and ten came back and reported fearfully that there were giants in the land. Two came back optimistically and reported that the land was plentiful…a land flowing with milk and honey. And here I am allowing the giants to blot out my assignment and my mission. Yes, there are giants in the land, but ahead of me that same land is flowing with milk and honey. How many of us see what we have always wanted but cower back in fear at the thought of having to conquer the giants along the way? Giants of anxiety, insecurity, and discouragement. The blessing comes when you fight your giants and move forward anyway. Look around you. There are more with you than against you. I’m with you, and I’m confident there are others. Let’s move forward, fight our giants, and enter into everything God has for us.