Am I Qualified?

Is there a difference between being unqualified and being disqualified? Yes, there is, and I am both. Some days I sit down at this laptop and feel completely out of my element. Who said that I could write? Who said that I should bear all of my pain to complete strangers? This is such a scary journey, and with three months in I’m wondering how do I proceed. I’ll tell you how. By looking within and without. Within me I see gifts that God has given me, but I also see where I have done some things that should have disqualified me from being here and doing this right now. Within me I also see that I trained to be a teacher, but by the grace of God He has allowed me to write. Let me add to the glory of God and for the glory of God, I am writing. This morning I looked on the outside and at all of the things I am currently worried about: my son, my finances, my parents, and the world, and quite honestly my mind hasn’t stopped spinning. I see some giants ahead of me, but those giants have become my content. But again, am I qualified? Maybe you’re asking yourself the same thing. I have no earth shattering discoveries or definitive answers, but I do know this. For eighteen months I sat on my couch anesthetizing myself with food and mindless TV. I gained weight, and I was totally disengaged with life. The moment I started exercising and getting healthier mentally and physically, I was eager to conquer the next thing. Initially I thought that healthy living was about healthy living, but it became about so much more. It was about finding the me that was buried behind a dissatisfied life. It was about discovering the gifts that were lying dormant and that I was too afraid to uncover. Will living out your dreams be easy? Not in the least. Will it be worth it? We shall see together. Thank you for going with me into the scary unknown.