It's Back: The Spirit of Rejection

Before this blog was ever launched I had a prayer warrior pray for me and over this writing assignment. In the prayer she called out the spirit of rejection and for it to be lifted off of my life. Because I had broken a soul tie, I thought the prayer was directed towards me not feeling rejected by men and to walk as God called me to during my singleness. This weekend I realized it was so much deeper. In almost every area of my life, I encounter people who have been rejected. I recognize it in them because rejection has been so deeply rooted in my own life. During this reflection I went back to my very first friend: my cousin. We can be seen together in numerous childhood pictures, and she was the first person I considered to be my friend. We grew up together, even being neighbors at one point, completed school, and kept in touch during college and as we launched our careers. And then came the rift between our fathers. I wanted to remain friends, but over time she rejected me and chose standing with her father over including me in her life. I can share this now because I released the hurt and accepted her rejection some time last year after a particularly ugly incident between our fathers. I’m sharing this because I know someone reading this can relate. During the rift I reached out, I prayed, and I had other people pray on our behalf. After last summer I realized that I was still willing to love her, but I wasn’t going to keep reaching out when she clearly had no desire to reciprocate. Rejection is a hurtful thing. Even now I feel rejected in my singleness. Yes, back to that. However as I reflect on all of the poor choices I made as a result of feeling rejected and how I finally can see God’s hand and protection in all of my mess, I would rather take the feeling of rejection than being in a potentially harmful relationship no matter who it is with. As my prayer warrior prayed for me, she prayed that God would curse the spirit of rejection at the root. I can see how God has made me more aware of it so that I work to continuously let that spirit go and spend time cultivating the relationships with the many, many people He has sent my way to be a blessing in my life.