Iron Sharpens Iron Part II

Superwoman is admitting to being spoiled and immature. In all this talk about growing spiritually mature, I am recognizing my own lack of maturity. I want God to grow me up on my own terms. Over the past few weeks I have learned that when life happens or the enemy attacks, I have to deal with it. What I haven’t accepted is the role of people in the process of me growing. I see how God allows circumstances to grow me spiritually as long as I pass the tests. Dealing with people is a whole other perplexity. I’ve been looking in the mirror and smiling about getting closer to 50, and I erroneously believed I could say what I want to say like my grandmother and other seniors did. But God hasn’t cleared me yet to speak with no filter. Are there people who get on my nerves? Yes!!! Do I have the right to express myself and tell them they get on my nerves? Absolutely NOT!!! These exclamation points are not directed to you at all…they are all pointing in my direction. I’ve posted about anger, and at some point I’m going to post again about my temper. It’s not pretty. There are times I want to put myself in timeout and stay away from people for long periods of time. How does a writer who wants readers isolate herself? She can’t and she doesn’t. I am learning that in order to be elevated as mentioned in Part I, I have to accept all forms of growth. This is tough but necessary. I have times when I joke and ask God for a life of isolation, and I’m sure He laughs too. To my core I am a people person just as He created me to be, but to my core I am learning that I don’t get to pick and choose the people He sends my way. Nor do I get to pick and choose the lessons I am to learn from the people God sends my way.