On Doing Too Much

Several weeks ago I asked God to not only speak to me in dreams but to also allow me to understand what my dreams meant. Last night I had a second dream about losing my purse, but in this dream I was with a former soul tie and spent more time trying to help the soul tie than keeping up with my purse. As I said in a previous blog, I learned from a poet that purses can represent our value. Ladies love purses, so much so that they won’t put them on the floor or leave them with people they don’t trust. But we will treat ourselves less cautiously. The person in my dream in real life has deep rooted problems, and in my dream I went somewhere with him against my better judgement and left my purse (my value) behind. This dream was different from the first one because we kept driving aimlessly, and I kept getting further and further away from myself and my value. In the first dream I was riding around in a circle, and this one was incredibly more chaotic. As I reflected on the many layers of the dream, I kept coming back to this. Often I am guilty of wanting to help everyone. Helping isn’t the problem. Trying to help in my own strength is when I get in trouble. Alternate feelings of frustration and exhaustion because I don’t have what it takes without God’s intervention. Looking back over my former superhero days I honestly didn’t realize how much I relied on me running around “helping” and how much I neglected doing the first thing God called us to do, and that is to bring everything (and everyone) to him in prayer. I don’t know about anyone else, but I’m constantly getting out of balance. Just when I think I’ve learned the balance between faith and works, I find myself exhausted again due to relying on works. Maybe my dream was a warning in advance. As I see the condition of the world and even areas of my own world (work, personal life, fitness, church, etc.) the problems can seem overwhelming. Thank you, Lord, for that dream that revealed so much. Your Spirit is leading us to pray first, listen to what and where the Spirit is leading, and allow You to work THROUGH us. Let frustration and exhaustion be a sign to all of us that we are doing too much on own and too often excluding the power of God to do the work that lasts. Again, thank you, Lord, for the warning.