The Grace of God: A Comparison of Two Journeys

Sunday was definitely impactful, and I had an A-ha moment while I was in service. There I was listening to a message about me, the prodigal son (or daughter), and I thought, wait, I’ve been here before. Haven’t I left God before and then came back? And then left Him again and came back? And wait…for good measure I left again? This reminds me of my weight loss journeys. Yes that’s plural because there have been four of them. I lost weight and regained it four times. As I contemplated writing my first book on my weight loss journey, I thought my constant failures cancelled out my eligibility to share my story. Doesn’t failure mean that you are tossed out of the game? No!!! I have been questioning God for months asking Him why He has called me to write. Sure, when He called me in 2006 I had just returned for the second time, and I thought….hmmmm, maybe He is asking the wrong person. Maybe I thought that I heard God, but maybe I didn’t. Do these self-doubts sound familiar? In 2017 when I was wrestling with my sins and my calling and failing at both I thought God had definitely counted me out. Instead I heard a message in November that broke me. The message was on how the Holy Spirit was going to work in my life. All I could do was weep and weep and weep. It was as if out of all of the thousands of other people hearing the message it was designed specifically for me with a purpose to draw me back. What an amazing God! From that day forward I was determined to allow God into all of my rooms and to no longer exclude Him from areas I previously kept to myself. I told Him I was His and that I was ready for any and everywhere He led. And that is how this blog was born. Yes, the call to do this was in 2006, but like on the way to my final fitness journey there were slips and falls in between but thankfully also a grace that picked me up and put me back on the journey just like the great fish did for Jonah.